Christmas Wish List

Since it's already 15 days before Xmas and I'm still undecided as to what to ask as a present, I guess I will just let those who want to give me a present be the ones to decide. I do have a wish list, though, but I doubt if I'll ever get any of the items in here:

My Xmas Wish List

1. Steve Berry novels (available at all Powerbooks and National Bookstore outlets)
2. Philippa Gregory novels (available at all Powerbooks and National Bookstore outlets)
3. a pair of light blue Ipanema G2B sandals (available at Rustan's Makati)
4. a pair of gold Crocs Malindi flats (availableat Rustan's and Crocs stores)
5. a visit to Manila Ocean Park
6. a set of Crayola gel pens (available at Toy Kingdom & Rustan's)

Preferably, that's it. I wanted something else but I can't be asking for the same thing as one of my siblings. Guess I'd have to sacrifice. Besides, it's in the thought that comes with the gift. Presents need not be expensive. It's actually self-explanatory why I'm asking for these gifts.

Pinoy Fear Factor

Pinoy Fear Factor premiered last night after " I Love Betty La Fea" at ABS-CBN. Jose happens to be one of the 12 participantsand he's competing against celebs (Phoemela Baranda and LJ Moreno). Since PFF was pre-recorded, I bet Jose and his fellow participants already know who won. It's up to us to find out who was hailed El Ultimo Participante by tuning in every night.

Yesterday, Mom and I watched "Quantum of solace"at ATC. "Casino Royale" was beteer than this for me. Personally, I'm not a fan of Daniel Craig. Among all the 007 movies I've seen, I like "Die Another" and "Tomorrow Never Dies". Pierce Brosnan portrayed 007 then and Halle Berry became one of his Bond girls. It was also my bf and I's 16th month as a couple.We'll be celebratig it by going out on a date at the last Saturday of November.We plan to watch "Australia" starring Nicole Kidman and Hugh Jackman.

Towards The End Of Another Year

While watching TV last night, I saw the TV ad that announced "Pinoy Fear Factor"'s 12 participants. To my utter amazement, one of them is Jose Sarasola; my HS schoolmate during Marymount days and also the guy who has been the major reason for many of my tearful, sleepless nights back in HS. We bumped into each other at ATC (VMV Hypoallergenics and Shiseido area)last Halloween. Who knows what he'd be up to next? He was a Candy cutie, Cosmo bachelor, forner gag show "Wazzup, Wazzup" 's Sweetest Zupista and commercial model for Oishi Oheya, Mountain Dew and Wendy's Garden Fresh Salads.

The grand prize winner of "Pinoy Fear Factor" will take home a whopping 2 million pesos plus house & lot . It wouldn't hurt to show him support even if it's because he used to be one of my crushes. I consider him a friend who made me know how to mend a wounded heart, accept rejection and battle frustration. A guy like Jose is truly unforgettable because he has that smile that never fails to enchant women who are fortunate enough to be in his presence.

"Pinoy Fear Factor" will start airing November 10, Monday night at ABS-CBN's Primetime Bida. All scenes and episodes were shot on location at Buenos Aires, Argentina.

Feel So Good

Thank you, Lord God for making it sunny with light rainshowers yesterday. Julius and I exchanged koalas, had a great time together then went to SM Southmall. We purchased a green, medium-sized shirt for my bro's 20th birthday. Our lunch were seafood hot pot, kakiage tempura, katsudon with miso soup and 2 bottomless red iced teas. That were all available at Rai Rai Ken, UG, SM Southmall. Both of us would certainly dine there again. Good thing we were able to avoid the traffic going home. We went to ATC and sang a few songs at Timezone's videoke booth. He treated us both to NYFD giant fries with 3 dips: lemon herb, pesto and ranch. So absolutely yummy and we enjoyed it better with iced teas from The Tea Square ( ATC Promenade near Cinderella and British India).

When we got home, Tita Ronnie, Ate Nice, Kuya Bong, Tita Linda, Tito Mitchie and Ate Chin were here to greet me and Julius. Julius hitched a ride home with Tita Ronnie and company. Tita Linda, Tito Mitchie and Ate Chin had dinner with us at home last night. On Thursday, my bf Julius and I will meet up at APC for the Open House and Commerce Week festivities. I'd be inquiring if my Marketing & Advertising subjects will be credited if I shift to BS Tourism Management.

Movies To Watch

1. Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants- Blake Lively, Alexis Bledel, America Ferrara
2. Disater Movie- the cast of Superhero Movie and Scary Movie 4
3. Tropic Thunder- Robert Downey, Jr., Jack Black
4. Eagle Eye- Michelle Monaghan, Shia Le Boeuf

CDs/MP3s You Have To Own

1. Take A Bow- NeYo version
2. Jump Off- Ray-J
3. Your Universe-Rico Blanco
4. Yugto- Rico Blanco
5. Puso- Spongecola (UAAP Season 71 Theme)

Events

Nov. 29- Dec.1- St. James The Great Bazaar at Cuenca Community Centre, AAV
Nov. 22- Michael Learns To Rock at the Big Dome
Oct. 3- 50 Cent Live in Manila at the Big Dome
Oct. 25- Cable Car, ATC nightout

Can't Help But Wait-Trey Songz

[Intro:]
I can't help but wait
Ohh uh
Can't help but wait
Check it out

[Verse 1:]
I see you, you're with him
He ain't right but you don't trip
You stand by, while he lies
Then turn right 'round and forgive

I can't take to see your face, with those tears run down your cheeks
But what can I do
I gotta stay true
'Cause deep down I'm still a G

[Bridge:]
And I don't wanna come between you and your man
Even though I know I treat you better than he can

[Hook:]
Girl I can't help but wait
'Til you get that with him, it don't change
Can't help but wait
'Til you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
'Til you, see you, for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait

[Verse 2:]
Listen, it ain't fresh to just let him call the shots
You're a queen, you should be, getting all that someone's got
You should be rocking the latest in purses, bracelets, and watches, your worth
Much more than an occasional "I love you"
I'm thinking of you

[Bridge:]
And I don't wanna come between you and your man (No)
Even though I know I treat you better than he can

[Hook:]
Girl I can't help but wait
'Til you get that with him, it don't change
Can't help but wait
'Til you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
'Til you, see you, for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait

[Brakedown:]
Get it together
You can do better
See is believing
And I see what you need so
I'm gone play my position
Let you catch what you've been missin'
I'm calling out

[Hook:]
Girl 'cause I can't help but wait
'Til you get that with him, it don't change
Can't help but wait
'Til you see that with me it ain't the same
Can't help but wait
'Til you, see you, for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And I can't help but wait [x2]

[Outro:]
Oh - can't help but wait, babe
No-no-no-no-no-no
I can't help but wait
Oh-oh-oh, can't help but wait
No, no, no

Mean Girls and Gossip Folks

Tonight, I found out that someone started a rumor about me being 7 mos. pregnant. How can that be when I've had my period every month? Fenel texted me this info at excatly midnight of Sept. 21. Somehow, being the subject of many a gossip folk's rumor no longer bothers me. It's the most common sin of mankind: LYING and GOSSIP.

If you were to believe all the rumors ever spread about me, I'd have live a over a hundred lifetimes for I am nowhere close to the woman they assume me to be.Insecurity + jealousy + envy = the ingredients of a meanie and gossip folk.Don't even get me started with the numerous schemes and plans these folks would do just to gain publicity and attention. They pride themselves in being invited to every major Embassy, Alchemy, Ascend, Warehouse 135, Fiamma, Temple or Jaipur event; thinking that by being sen in these "synagogues to Satan", they are part of the in-crowd or are deities living atop Mount Olympus.

I will let God guide me into accepting the fate of this "woe-be-gones"Such a pity to see women from respectable and decent families act immature and waste their breath on rumors that have no proof and basis. They don't know me; do they even know THEIRSELVES? Before God created them in their mothers' wombs, Satan worked triple shifts to make sure these "Babies" will be trapped and cursed into a life bred from evil. No one can save them now except maybe God but unless they THEMSELVES choose to change; there shall be no promise of salvation for the mean girl/gossip folk.

Who would want to spend all eternity in hell? I sure don't. I learned my lesson. To cure one's self of addiction to lying and gossipping, they must eat spicy food every time they lie or gossip. One more thing about meanies and gossip folks is that they have no conscience or guilt. They will do their best to inflict emotional, mental and physical pain to their victims. The best way to seek revenge is thru prayer. I always tell myself that i must not stoop down to their level.

San Beda Alabang HS Juniors' Volleyball Game

Link

Watch my sister's team win against St. Stephen's HS.

Another Day Alone Makes You An Angsty Individual

Last night, my entire family watched the latest Robert de Niro/Al Pacino starrer. It was a very challenging and mind-twisting flick. There was just this female CSI in the movie that I wanted to kill in the end. Forgive me for having this thought; she was a whore who slept with every guy who asked her to! Moving on, I asked my parents about the APCDC dance concert next Friday. My parents allow me to go only if I have a definite way home. This would require informing Tita Dorcas and telling her that Julius would bring me home after the concert. My plan's that Julius and I will meet at APC by 7pm, pay for the reserved tickets, watch the concert then have late dinner. I'll set my own curfew: 11pm but I'm guessing Tita Dorcas would never understand that her son's got to hang out with his girlfriend. Whatever happens, I should text Joven by today to confirm that we're going to watch the concert. There better not be anything that would mess this up. It's been a half a year since I discontinued my college education at APC. I believe it's about time I paid the school a visit. Something makes me want to see my friends; probably to seek closure and acceptance from my program director for my decision to follow and a pursue a different career path.

Expectations of Things To Occur This Week

Sun. - Ateneo might win against UE. I have yet to see them undefeated.
- DLSU should do their best and give it all they got if they want to win and be one of the Final 4.
Mon. - Finalize reservation for 2 APCDC concert tickets.
- Remind mom and dad about it.
Tues. - Upload photos of the UAAP games.
- Start making 2-page, 2-column article re: Sunday's UAAP feat.
Wed. - Send Juliette an advanced b-day greeting in Facebook.
- Upload article re: Sunday's UAAP feat at Blogger & Multiply.
Thurs. - Check G! Mail and Y! mail accounts.
- Update songs on iPod.
-Ask Mom for the P 2,000.
- Remind Julius about the concert.
Fri. - CONCERT NIGHT
- Meet Joven at APC lobby by 5pm.
-Eat dinner with Julius near APC before the concert starts.
- Thank Tita Dorcas and my parents for alowing Julius and I to go out.
* Whew! It sure will be a very busy week. I should be paid for blogging....
I REALLY SHOULD! :'(
Is it too much to ask for the permission of your BF's mom? :\

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

There were times when I start to doubt that I can live my life without you.
I shed a tear; even weep alone at night.
When I'm by your side, everything changes.
The gray clouds go away; the sun comes out to play.

All my life I waited for you to come around
Why is it we let go of things that we have found?

You can cast away my fears, even wipe away my tears
Sing a song I love to hear or whisper softly in my ear
That your heart belongs and beats for no else but me
One question still remains: "should I stay or should I go"?

It isn't easy for me to decide but I would no longer hide
These feelings for you I keep deep inside
So long to those who have been a part of my past
I left them for you 'cause I felt your love would last....

Longer until forever...
Should I stay or go.....?

Copied from Pia Sunga

Name: Carissa Vaflor Canillas
Single or Taken: taken

Happy about that: honestly, I'm confused about it right now

Eye color: black

Shoe size:In flats: 8.0 in heels:8.5

Height: 5'4

What are you wearing right now? jogging pants and maroon Survivor shirt

Where do you live: Muntinlupa, Alabang
Righty or lefty: right

Can you make a dollar in change right now: no
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FAVORITES

Kind of pants: clamdiggers and pedalpushers
Animal: dogs , koalas, bunnies and wombats

Drink: royal select, Welch's , Martinelli's

Month: February, month of hearts
Juice: Orange
Favorite cartoon character: Phineas and Ferb
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HAVE YOU EVER...

Given anyone a bath: yes

Bungee Jumped?: nope

Made yourself throw-up?: no

Skinny dipped?: plan to someday

Loved someone so much it made you cry?: of course!

Broken a bone: no

Played truth or dare: yes

Been in a physical fight: yes

Been on a plane: yes

Came close to dying: yeah

Been in a hot tub: no
Fallen asleep in school: of course!

Ran away: almost

Broken someone's heart: lotsa times and I'm known for it

Cried when someone died: yeah

Fell off your chair: no

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: who still does that?

Saved YM conversations: no

Used someone: huh?

Been cheated on: yeah!

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WHAT IS...

Beside you: pen, lamp, my cellphone, Samsung LCD TV

Last thing you consumed: Bicol Express w/ red rice and mixed vegetables in oyster sauce ----------------------------------------------------------------
Ever Had...

Chicken pox: yes

Sore Throat: yeah

Stitches: yeah. still have the scar.
Broken nose: no

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Do You...

Believe in love at first sight: yes

Long distance relationships: maybe. not right now, thank God!
Like school: yes, Culinary school in November!

Question yourself: no

Who was the last person that called you? Mum

Who makes you smile the most: My baby cousin Chelo

Who knows you the best: my mom, my grandma, cousins
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Do you like filling these out: only when i'm bored

Do you wear contacts/glasses? yes! my grade's high. L- 4.0, R-3.25

Do you get along with your family: yes

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Final Questions:

What did you do yesterday: Monday, i watched over my mum at the hospital

What car/truck do you wish to have: a Honda Jazz

Have a lava lamp: yeah

How many remote controls are in your house? 10 and they're all working! :D

Are you double jointed? no

When you last showered: this morning

Scary or Funny Movies: scary

Chocolate or Vanilla: none

Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper: rootbeer
Summer or winter: summer

Silver or Gold: gold

Diamond or pearl: pearls

Sprite or 7up: 7up
Coffee or tea: both

Phone or in person: phone

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Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: no. I have yet to.

2. Buy something: Nova chips and Nestea calamansi iced tea
3. Get sick: I haven't been in a while.

8. Talked to an ex: No. Can't do so now.

9. Miss someone: yeah...
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Last person who....

10. Slept in your bed: me

11. Saw/heard you cry? relatives and the parents of my sister's vball teammates last Sunday at Asian Hospital
12. Made you cry: the thought of not seing my bf during my bday party. his mom didn't allow him to go.

13. Went to the movies with: family. I'm always with them when I go out.

16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: No.
18. Been to Mexico: no

20. Been to Europe: no
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Random.....

22. what book are you reading now: Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer
24. Future KIDS names: chester antoine, jeremy mikhail, rielle corinne

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yes, I have no other place to put them in.

26. What's under your bed: slippers

27. Favorite sports to watch: UEFA, UAAP, women's volleyball

28. Favorite Locations: anywhere with friends and family

29. Tattoos or piercings: Piercings

30. What are you most scared of right now? that I'm running out of patience.... grrrr....!!!
31. Who do you really hate?: Not naman "hate". Hate is such a strong emotion. I dislike CQ, JJTC and a girl I call "japayuki".

32. Do you have a job?: nope

33.Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with: who hasn't? I've always liked Dan Humphrey of GG and Nathan Scott of One Tree Hill.

36. Are you lonely right now?: yes, VERY!
38. Song that's stuck in your head right now?: Leavin' by Jesse McCartney
39. Have you ever played strip poker: the heck?! NO!

40. Have you ever got beaten up?: I do the beating up! :P

42. Have you ever been on radio/TV: i've been a commercial extra. I dunno if I'm in Youtube.
43. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? nope

44. Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed you?: yeah and it always happens!

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Random...

what color is your underwear right now? black

Whats the first things you notice about the opposite/same sex?: clothes, body-built, eyes

Your Favorite Food?: Curently it's KFC Kung Pao Pasta Bowl and KFC Shrimp Surfers
Ever get so drunk you dont remember? i don't drink enough to get drunk! ;)

Are you too shy to ask someone out?: depends on the situation
Hugs or Kisses?: kisses

Dogs or cats?: dogs

Favorite Flower?: purple tulips and roses in every shade imaginable.

Have you ever fired a gun?: nah and I have no plans of doing so in the future.

How many pillows do you sleep with? 6 pillows! I love pillows.

Who are you missing right now?: Chelo, Mache, Anton, my bf Julius, APC friends
Do you think (any of) your ex(s) miss you? Nope. They better not! :)

My Mum Needs Your Prayers...

My mom needs your prayers. She's currently confined at Room 820 at the Asian Hospital at Filinvest Corporate City, Alabang. Yesterday, she suffered a mild heat stoke while we watched and cheered for my sister's team during their volleyball game against La Salle Lipa at the San Beda Alabang Sports Complex.

I'm including a picture of her. For those who don't know, my mum has always been a strong person and she has been a big influence to me and my siblings. I was there when she told she felt she was hyperventilating. I believe she can get through this...

In the pic: Me, Gelo, Bea, my mom Charmaine , and my dad Martin. This was taken last June at our Subic trip with Bea's volleyball team.

Life Goes On (The Ramblings and Rants Of A 20+ Amateur)

I'm turning 22 on Wednesday. Wednesday also marks my 14-month long relationship with my boyfriend, Julius. Recently, I've had a lot of things going on in my mind that try as I may to forget them, I just end up dreading them; thus resulting in worst-case scenarios. Let me see, when was the last time I was ever serious about my studies? To those who don't know yet, I've stopped schooling since March 2008. Before, I was so happy with my decision because I thought all along that it would be easy to shift courses and enroll for culinary arts class in a culinary academy nonetheless. Fast forward to the present and I'm still an unemployed, out-of-school college undergrad.

Turning 22 would mean taking on more challenges and responsibilities. I am a far-cry from 20+ pros who are successful in their chosen careers. Blame it all on laziness and deliberately slacking off. Someone here who knows of a job I can apply for? Something that only requires a HS diploma? Then again, what options do I have? My mom pointed out to me that it isn't too late for me to study again and that I'm not less of a person if Iwasn't able to obtain a degree by the age of 20.

If any of you have plans of telling me I wasted precious time, money, words and opportunity on a course I just gave up on, don't bother. I don't need your sympathy. What I need most is your encouragement and support. That's ALL I NEED.

Too Much Of A Virtue Can Harm You

As of now, I've already lost count of the number of times I was patient and understanding enough of situations which are beyond my control. For instance, my boyfriend is one of the busiest people I know. He's always on call; his office might as well be his second home. By the start of September, he'll be working on a very tedious project that would need all his time, focus, and attention.

It will be so selfish of me if I ask him to disregard his job and take it forgranted. I've already done that and it almost caused ourbreak-up. Honestly, I don't know how he was able to forgive me.
What's going to happen now is that we won't be seeing each other after I celebrate my 22nd birthday party and he gets to return Aussie to me. Instead, I'll get myself busy with applying in culinary arts school. When he's no longer busy then we can both start seeing each other again.

"I can't get by without you. I need you more each day. The way I feel about you; there's nothing much to say. I love you and I need you. There's no way I can get by without you."